Self Proclamation

I saw a post on facebook just now that said something like "no one appreciates what i do until i don't do it".

My initital reaction was 'damn right , i bust my butt around this place doing all of this 'stuff' that's for other people...jobs that i don't really enjoy or want to do any more than they do ..and no one even gives a darn'

pretty harsh

and then i had to remind myself about the danger of expectation.

I still feel that one day my family will 'wake up ' and realize how much more wonderful our space is when everyone picks up after themselves, when everyone chips in and does their part..how much more leisure time we would have as a family if I weren't the only one doing the work which keeps me from getting to hang out and enjoy the company of my people more often..if i weren't spending so much time telling them all to do their chores..over and over and over again..

My expectation of this so called awakening is not realistic.

The reality is that these things are just not important to them as they are to me..while they do notice the difference between a clean house day and a disaster area day the disaster area days do not drag them down as they do me

So who am i really doing the jobs for ..

myself

When i expect others to appreciate my efforts  as much as i appreciate them I am just setting myself up for disappointment...and setting them up to be the recipients of my disappointment...and this is not fair to any of us.

When my space is clear it's easier for my head and heart to be clear...and this should be reward enough for my efforts.

I will continue to remind myself of the importance of this...of remembering that I value my own efforts and that there is a very important reason for my work...it is satisfying to me...no matter how mundane it may seem.


It is possible that one day my kids will arrive at a point where they also appreciate their own efforts just for themselves and not for me or anyone else..